ashpalt heart stain

walking dead
droopy faces drag along the shopping centre floor
careful not to catch in the wheels of your trolley

plus size doughnuts for plus size waistlines
i left my heart in sanfransisco
and there it stayed to wait for you
but you never came
you got distracted in katies

listen to mothers talking to their mothers
agreeing upon things they have no intention of doing
or planning
yes yes
appear i am interested - i marvelled this long ago
or so i seem to believe.....truth be it i am actually quite bad at this deception
i watch you watching nothing nodding freely
a freelance nodder
i have 3 dollars left so i place them in your slot

keep nodding

heart space big void of all feeling
shirts don't fit like they used to
just big gaping holes where things used to be
like boobs or hearts or something like one of the two
don't look me in the eye


i pull over at the side of the road
removing my fold-up table and chair
uncap the thermos and pour myself an instant coffee
yum, the flavours shoot straight up my nostrils
capilaries expand
full of blend 43 love

i am currently sitting in the midst of a revolutionary nightmare
on my right is pure country-side and on my left a highway

before me lay fresh road kill


i breathe it all in and it tastes like smoke jacket - like that jacket you used to wear when you smoked and haven't worn in an exceptionally long time
it needs a dry-clean
country spilling into cities

cities spewing into the country
doctors playing farmers
doctors wives playing with farmers whilst hubby is away

sex in the barn
sex on the tractor

turn the slasher off first





the aging process
smells like cabbage fart
i see people i haven't seen in an exceptionally long time
some of which would frown a lot so when i see them i can't seem to stop looking at those creases/indentations of life

i too wear proof of age upon my face
i like to skip


if you want my love you've got it
if you need my love you've got it
i won't fight it
i won't turn your love away - cheap trick